am i supposed to apologize lyrics – maria mena

i wrote a song, a journal
gave it to the world
told the story
of when i was just a girl

i sought understanding
clarity in truth
by baring all the wounds
inflicted on my youth

you criticized my choice
to stand up to my past
to give the pain a voice
so that it too could p*ss

but i felt brave
and filled with pride as i let go
of bitterness that wouldn’t leave or let me grow

but i will spend a lifetime
trying to understand
why someone sharing my bloodline
would not lend me their hand

am i supposed to apologize?
am i supposed to apologize?
am i supposed to apologize?
am i supposed to apologize?

i loved her more than myself
but she made me choose
between her and my father
and so i refused

i fled her house and wrath
eleven years of age
followed the crooked path
that led me to a stage

the curtains opened up
my heart followed the lead
the music wouldn’t stop
and i could finally breathe

but i will spend a lifetime
trying to understand
why someone sharing my bloodline
would not lend me their hand

am i supposed to apologize?
am i supposed to apologize?
am i supposed to apologize?
am i supposed to apologize?

/ maria mena lyrics