ashland after midnight lyrics – dearestazazel

they waited till the lights were gone to make the move
hands crept in the dark reaching out
for you cannot fight it back
cross the floor to the door
open
run
run
as fast as you can
there is weight to the air
giving shape to the feeling
this is wrong
this is wrong
seeking death
this is me killing christ
i am hammer and nails and a spear in the side
the trees weep
i’ve never lived through a night like this

and did you think it would be beautiful?
and did you think it would last forever?

they wouldn’t let me go
instead they struck me down and left me dead
and i woke up in someone new
and left my corpse alive for you

a nightmare of you shatters sleep
you were there in tangled flesh
your mouth wide open
there were two small words on your tongue
“never you”
gave it one last look and i shook… and i shook
i poured it down till i’d poured it out
would the suffering last?
would it take me fast?
and i heard the mirror say something strange
“we won’t have you now”
then the shape started changing

and did you think i would be everything?
and did you think that i would bring you peace?

they wouldn’t let me go
instead they struck me down and left me dead
and i woke up in someone new
and left my corpse alive for you

the door was shut on its own
light erased
body pressed to the sheets
hold me down
come inside
and i’d swear i was never so alive
when death was close and satisfied
closer
closer
close to me
fill me up inside then let me be
the darkness came to hide the fall
then it overflowed and killed it all

and did you think it would be beautiful?
and did you think it would last forever?
and did you know it would swallow everything?
and did you think it would bring you peace?

they wouldn’t let me go
instead they struck me down and left me dead
and i woke up in someone new
and left my corpse alive for you

/ dearestazazel lyrics