i loved you so what lyrics – ani difranco

who’s gonna give a sh*t?
who’s gonna take the call
when you find out that the road
is painted on the wall
and you’re turned up to top-volume
and you’re just sitting there in pause
with your fear a little secret
scratching at you with its claws
and you’re trying hard to figure out
just exactly how you feel
before you end up parked, and sobbing
forehead on the steering wheel.

and who are you now?
and who were you then?
like you thought somehow
you could just pretend
you could figure it all out
the mathematics of regret
so it takes two beers to remember, now
and five to forget
i loved you so.
yeah i loved you so what

how many times undone
can one person be
as they’re careening through the facade
of their favorite fantasy
you just close your eyes slowly
like you’re waiting for a kiss
and hope some lowly little power
will pull you out of this
but none comes at first
and little comes at all
when inspiration finally hits you
it barely even breaks your fall

and who were you then?
and who are you now?
that you can’t pretend
that you could figure it all out
subtract out the impact
and the fall is all you get
so it takes two beers to remember now
and three more to forget
i loved you so…
i loved you, so what
i loved you, so what

/ ani difranco lyrics