portrait lyrics – aiden

portrait

two men entered and i thought i was dreaming.
i heard the sounds of what were laughter.
and expected the door to slam off the hinges.
the dark initiates my fear and i tell myself
nothing can hurt me.
nothing can hurt me.
the blanket weighs 300 pounds pinning me on my stomach.
although my eyes are open, i see nothing but a spiraling glow
that radiates from the alarm clock on the nightstand.
hands are gripping me. the sheets are twisted
i’m suffocating, i smell nail polish.
i picture my mother out in the garden on a spring day
planting new strawberry seeds.
the earth aroma as she turns the soil lingers.
i imagine my life as a princess.
nothing can hurt me.
nothing can hurt me.
it’s 5:47 a.m. and the sun looks as if it’s just about to defeat the night sky.
a battle between good and evil that rages on through centuries unnoticed.
my night gown is tangled above my hips.
i went to sleep with panties on and i smell blood.
my br**sts are exposed and sore.
one of them has bite marks.
blinding light from the bathroom crushes my eyes.
i try to stand up and the weight of the world buckles my knees.
nothing can hurt me.
nothing can hurt me.
the dawn breaks and this veil for secrecy i carry around is about to melt.
something within my vein explodes.
and i realize i’m not looking at a portrait now.
we are all living in it.

/ aiden lyrics