schizophrenia (mental suicide) lyrics – alastis

i think of death as if it’s near
plan my future as if it’s doesn’t exist
i’d like to die without having lived
disappear without regret nor joy
death is perhaps a delivery
n*body’s never managed to prove it

i’d like to have no future
kill without remorse even friends
be an animal without faith nor law

mad, i begin to be mad

i feel my nerves that are cracking
i want to weep and to laugh
an interior force pushes me to suicide
an other one pushes me to folly
i think of death as if it’s near
project my future as if it doesn’t exist…

/ alastis lyrics