suicide vigil lyrics – after the eulogy

time and time again
ive tried to erase myself one last time
one less mouth that wont cause nausea
its looking beautiful now
i cant control
from the inside out i can see myself
i can yet change
not for what ive done but for the failure that i reek of
this failure
that i failure that i reek of
i’m becoming more anxious with every hour i let by
i’m still trying to dissect the filth that i call myself
yet you keep pushing me
today is the your last day
learn how to count your blessings
scratched form truth
how i became you
to push hard
to push you i shall
i shall give into lies
i shall dissect the envy from you to be heard
i shall never believe you
ive failed
no pity
from you

/ after the eulogy lyrics