i destroyed you to protect you from all the things i never want to be.
i ruined you so i could ruin me.
no guilt, no sympathy for me.
self destruction never seemed so beautiful.
anesthesia only hides what won’t die.
i never climbed so high.
but i only had further to fall.
i never asked myself why.
i never gave it any thought at all.
i need to separate, to divide,
before i take you down with me.
perhaps i’m too sick to pray, or not sick enough to.
it’s too late for me.
there’s nothing i can do to save you from me.
forget everything you are and forgive me.